Time to Reflect

That is what Easter should be, time to reflect. Think about what our Savior has done for us. I need to slow down and do this for myself. I am grateful for the time off. Thursday, Friday then the weekend. It won't be totally peaceful, but I am hoping for a little rejuvenation. I had to go to the chiropractor yesterday for the first tie in 13 years. My neck and shoulders hurt horrible and I had a head ache for 2 straight weeks. This past week I finally realized I wasn't still battling the flu, but the book bags I carry and high-heeled shoes on my feet were taking a toll. Oh, the relief! I was giddy today and my class thought I was nuts, but HEY! It was the first time I've been headache free for a while, and I appreciated it! I found out I only have a ten dollar co-pay so I'll keep up a schedule with the chiropractor for at least a while.

I need time away from the classroom too. Seeing what these children go through and realizing how little we can do has also taken it's toll on me. I guess I want to fix them all, and it's not possible. I've tried to watch other teachers and professionals and learn the ropes and one of the biggest things I've seen is that their hands are tied and they have to shut down that part of their heart that says "this isn't right!" Monday is a conference day and the aides have a training course entitled "Everything you wanted to know about being a teacher's aide/assistant and were afraid to ask". My building principal made a point of telling me I needed to be there, so I'm afraid they will get into the "this is reality and we are just here to help them get the most out of education" speech. That may just discourage me more. This is my job though, and their are aspects I love. If and when it's time to move on, God will let me know. He always has. In the mean time this will grow and stretch me more.

So, what am I going to do with my time off? Clean. I know two things you could tell me. First of all, if I kept up better all the time, I wouldn't have to spend a day off cleaning. Or, from the other side of the fence, it's your day off, SEW! Well, the first thing just isn't gonna happen, so I must do some cleaning tomorrow. And curiously, I feel so tired and burnt out that cleaning seems the only thing to do! A good old fashioned scrubbing to get the anxieties out! My daughter is going on a retreat (please play for safety, esp traveling) so in the afternoon I need to pick her up some snacks, pick up her friend and drop them off at church. Then another chiropractor appointment. Friday, may be more of a sewing day, then in the evening we are going to a hockey game. Saturday, DS and I are doing some holiday baking. Chocolate swirl cheesecake bars and homemade moon pies are on the menu. Sunday we travel to Grandma's for Easter dinner after church.

How's Grandma doing? Physically, she is doing well. Mentally she is sad and tired. Her last letter to me was so depressing. She lives with Grandpa, my Aunt and my cousin. Grandpa has never been a nice man, my Aunt is an alcoholic, and my cousin (+ two of her children) is into drugs and partying and has medication she won't take. Put them all in the same house and they fight and bicker and who knows what all! My mom has looked into trying to ease the situation, but legally she can not unless Grandma cooperates, which she won't. My family dreads going there, but we do each holiday for Grandma. What else do I do?

Back to happier things. I have lots of pictures to take tomorrow. I've been thrifting, and crafting and have received goodies in the mail to share.

Here's one of DS. His team won the SuperBowl and Grandma ordered him the championship shirt and hat! (PLEASE! Ignore the mess behind him!! ;O)
See you soon!
~Blessings